“Eyed” at the bank.

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This I wrote yesterday while the Moon was in Pisces:

Suddenly came a feeling…I have to write. When was the last time I wrote here? About one year ago it looks like. Today the Moon is in Pisces. Might be because of that I’ve been sort of drifting around the whole day. I have no idea where this little text will go but that´s how it´s supposed to be a day like this.

When I woke up on this job free day the Sun was shining but when I was finally out of the house heading for the city center it was suddenly fog everywhere. It happens quite often in this city of canals but when it’s on a Pisces Moon day it gives a much more spiritual and mystical feeling. Actually I love fog, it’s much easier to pretend that you live in a fairy tale then, and I love fairy tales.

Now talking about Pisces I would like to share a thing that happened to me a few days ago. It started like this that I had to go to the bank to complete a random bank task. I really dislike visiting the bank. I simply don’t like the energy there and I also dislike everything that a bank stands for. But I am a human. A human that lives in a society…so I went.

I wanted to make the procedure as less painful and simple as possible, so I put on my stone face and went with steady steps towards the young man with the intense colgate smile sitting behind the desk.

A polite man. Smiling constantly…almost a little too constant. Asking me all kinds of questions that I had no idea about that bank people asked, but I’m new in this place and I want to be polite in the new culture that I’m adapting too so I smile back politely and answer the questions as short as I can. (To be a Gemini I can be quite introvert some days and not at all the typical social genius Gemini, I blame Virgo rising)

It is something with this man’s smile that is not fully correct. It’s not that I think about it at that moment but I start sweating, but I don’t realize what is wrong at that moment, but my body gives my some kind of strong signals that I ignore in my attempt to be polite. (What kind of sickness is that, to be polite into insanity?!) My boyfriend would have said for sure if he was watching that the guy was flirting with me, but my intuition speaks something else.

The man while finishing my banking request simultaneously continues to ask me questions that I am sure are not obligatory in the banking process! These are a few of them:

  • What are you doing here?
  • What is your boyfriend doing
  • Where do you live?
  • Why did you come here?
  • How are you going to achieve this and that…?

Now after I am a little bit shocked that I didn’t react, said something. I see myself as a quite “reactive” person so to say. I am not lame at all, rather the opposite, but it was something about this whole situation that made me paralyzed and like those theater dolls that you pull in threads from above in order to make them move, and somebody was holding in my threads at this moment.

The eyes of that guy… yes the eyes, it is very important to mention that there was a desynchronisation of that guys eyes and smile.

That was it. My banking request was done and I went home. On the way home I feel upset somehow, but I cannot pin point out what it could be. By the time I am home I feel quite unbalanced and I break down and start crying. My boyfriend asks me what is going on and I tell him that I have no idea. My boyfriend (who has an incredible intuition) asks me what happened at the bank. I tell the story, and he says that he had a bad feeling about the bank already when I said I was going there. Then he says the one thing that makes even the most open minded girl in the world (me) skeptical.

– You got “eyed”!!!

Eh…ok. And what does that mean exactly? He explains that if a person look at you with some kind of bad thoughts and intentions this person can transfer “bad” energy to you, just by looking at you. My boyfriend is from South Europe and there this is widely known. I am from another place of earth but I also believe in energies although in my culture we never spoke about “eyeing” in this sense.

I cannot know exactly what happened but it was a one of a kind experience that’s for sure! That is not the way you´re supposed to feel after a bank meeting.  And it’s not like me at all to break down just because somebody looks strange at you.

I’ve been thinking a bit about this incident since then.  Many people have called me a “sensitive” person. This can mean so much, but I think that I do am extra sensitive to environments. This further made me think about Neptune and boundaries. People with strong emphasis on Pisces or Neptune in their birth chart are said to take extra care of them self when it comes to energy radiation. This is something that I’m still working on. I easily get “sucked” into situations and this can be both good and bad. On the positive side when I’m in an inspiring environment I can suck in this energy in a nanosecond and become completely ecstatic, but when I’m in a negative environment I can feel completely drained…also in a nanosecond. I have my natal Moon in the 12th house trine Neptune.

Another thing that I thought about is what could be the evolutionary purpose of being hyper sensitive to environments. I believe that everything has a evolutionary purpose, that every person has a purpose in the collective. We all have specific “skills” that we are meant to use in bringing the collective further in development.

What could be the evolutionary advantages for our specie by having hyper sensitive personalities? What do you think?

 

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